Shop More Submit  Join Login
About Varied / Hobbyist Member AlyboxieFemale/Australia Recent Activity
Deviant for 2 Years
Needs Premium Membership
Statistics 81 Deviations 355 Comments 3,462 Pageviews

Newest Deviations

Favourites

Activity


deviantID

Alyboxie's Profile Picture
Alyboxie

Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
Australia
I used to draw a lot as a kid and have always been pretty good at it. However, I stopped drawing as I got older and by the time I was in my last year of high school, almost all of my subjects were science or maths related (except for Literature). Since starting university I have become gradually more confused about why I have a feeling of incompletion.

I'm a fan of both the arts and the sciences. Although I'm a science and mechatronics student, I tend to spend half my time doing artistic stuff such as playing the piano, writing and drawing. I also like to play video games to take my mind off of my studies. I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do... perhaps I might change to video games designing or programming :) I'd like to do something that challenges me logically, but also lets me be creative... if there is such a career :P

Anyway, my Steam name is the same as my dA name so you can add me if you want to :) (especially if you like playing Team Fortress 2)

P.S. I ran out of space for 'Favourite Games' :<
Interests
If you have played 'Ni No Kuni: Wrath of the White Witch', you are probably familiar with the little locket that Oliver uses; when walking around, sometimes this locket will glow, indicating he is near someone with a huge amount of a certain quality, like kindness or courage. You can take a piece of their 'heart' because they have more than enough of what they have. Then you may talk to some people who are lacking in certain qualities and you can help them by giving them the piece of heart that they are lacking. The Cat King near the beginning of the game was lacking in enthusiasm, though it was a bit more complicated than just giving him the piece of heart, he was still sorted out eventually.

I feel exactly like the Cat King did. I'm broken-hearted in real life, lacking enthusiasm; I feel like I want to do things but it takes an enormous amount of effort for me to achieve at most a mediocre level of performance in anything. If I start doing any university work, I feel immensely depressed for no reason. Within the past three years I have achieved little more than a year's worth of work. Last semester I failed all of my units. I was waking up somewhat earlier than usual during the holidays, but now I'm starting to wake up much later. It's extremely difficult to get to sleep and anhedonia is kicking in. I feel like there's nothing I can do. There are people who started university the same time I did and would be finishing their degree this year.

The most painful feeling that kills me every day is that of feeling like my talent and skill is going to waste. I am excellent at doing a large variety of things and I am also a quick learner, but I have no team, no work, nothing for which I can be useful. Without motivation to go on with my university course (and crippling depression) as well as not knowing what the hell I want or should be doing, I feel very lost, with no hope, no direction, no reason or purpose and no life. To me, I have already died inside, like the broken-hearted NPCs. Playing video games isn't a reward for hard work anymore, it's autopilot mode that puts my mind at ease temporarily through distraction.


If only it was as easy as giving me a piece of heart in 'the another world'.

AdCast - Ads from the Community

×

Comments


Add a Comment:
 
:iconwhiskyomega:
WhiskyOmega Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2012  Professional General Artist
Excellent gallery, as always! :thumbsup:

Wishing you a great Holiday Season and wonderful New Year! :santa:
:iconkermityayplz:
Reply
:iconalyboxie:
Alyboxie Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you :) hope you have a happy new year too!
Reply
:icondanteironclaw:
DanteIronclaw Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Student Artist
Sorry about the delay...
Thanks for the fav! :D
Reply
:iconalyboxie:
Alyboxie Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem! Your HG2G entry for the Companion Cube was very creative and the writing style was accurate; I just had to favourite it. I'd love to read more entries like that :)
Reply
:icondanteironclaw:
DanteIronclaw Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2012  Student Artist
Lol thanks :D I guess i should start working on a guide entry for ATLANTIS then, would be fun to do.
Reply
:iconalyboxie:
Alyboxie Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
That's a good idea :) if you end up doing that, I will look forward to reading it.
Reply
:iconzeldagirl236:
zeldagirl236 Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
happy birthday!!...:hug:....:party:
Reply
:iconalyboxie:
Alyboxie Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the llama and the birthday wish :D
deviantART muro drawing Comment Drawing
Reply
:iconzeldagirl236:
zeldagirl236 Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
your very welcum!!!...:hug:
Reply
:iconkocieoko:
KocieOko Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Happy nearly birthday! :)
Reply
Add a Comment: